Sarah G

alone this holiday

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:26:25 GMT

before i go off tomorrow, i shall pray for a safe trip and i shall eat seaweed shaker fries with ice cream hot fudge. mmmm. and then i will probably be sitting across him. 'don't speak' and then maybe we will only speak after i stare into his eyes. i don't know why he will always end up laughing. hmmm. but anyway, for now. it feels like alone-this-holiday. the song is rehearsing in my mind right now. well.. take care see you when i see youuu boo hoo hoooo.

December rain

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 11:59:02 GMT

okay i admit i miss having my looong hair and getting to smell my hair easily rather than asking people to smell it for me. get it? hmmmmmm. 2 more days. paranoid and fun feeling all mixed into one. and now my head is spinning. missing out on piz's birthday celebration at carousel tomorrow. azy's going to be so pretty in her dress and them both going to be so cute. the rest going to be so refined, haha and handsome and gorgeous. its nice getting to know all of them ever since azy got sick. sigh. i never want to see my bestest friend fall out like that again. or any of my favourite friends. seeing the 3 of them caring so much for azy is truly amazing and touching. wednesday is going to be my time with zul. i hope its going to be wonderful and i know its going to be hurtful too. since when did we both had a missed fight? but its good. i want a day where we get to dress formal and get to be us back. the months we missed out on love.

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 18:02:39 GMT

Yesterday i was talking about how i miss the real times with you. I think the last time we even went window shopping atleast was on my bday. After that, life got somehow really busy and complicated.
Atleast now, i'm seeing my best friend being in my position 4 years ago. And every little detail makes me sigh because it made me miss you even more when ridiculously, you're still here. and am i that late to make things better? you're so annoying and lovable at the same time. sometimes i think you secretly enjoy watching my watery eyes when you hurt me and then make it all up. you say we are two different people with different habits/characteristics. well, we're the same actually. always bickering non stop, ego, selfish, forgetful of ones needs and most importantly we forgot to love well. but yesterday, my bestest friend told me something that was true that i missed out about you. you never lie to me.
we seem to change so much over just two months, 60 days? we missed out on your birthday for this wednesday. but this wednesday is not happening anymore. and then i watch everything being miss. and then i will be last year again. and then i will sleep soon because i think i am done being in a cave. i feel more than alone this time.

reassemble your heart

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 17:03:52 GMT

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 10:28:24 GMT

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Fri, 07 Aug 2009 02:02:47 GMT

my sidekick

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 07:51:39 GMT

i will possess your heart

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 17:45:37 GMT

i want a pet rabbit to cuddle and sleep beside me.

you won't understand this

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 10:05:42 GMT

"we grew apart and moved on"

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 18:17:54 GMT

i asked for love
i asked for mercy
i asked for patience but you're already all of these things
if i knew what i needed
if i knew what was good for me
i'd be down on my knees begging please please let your light glow bright inside of me

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 08:14:23 GMT

CLASS OF 2007

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 04:28:45 GMT

But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream.